Friday, May 11, 2018

20 plus years and still going...

Hewlett-Packard is one of the most well known technology companies out today. HP has a long history starting back in 1939. HP was started by two motivated and forward thinking men in a garage in Palo Alto, California. When I think of how far HP has come and the technology barriers they have pushed, it is a lot for other companies to live up to. Some how HP has managed through perseverance to stay at the top of their game and has accomplished what many other technology companies failed to do. In fact many tech companies went out of business do to the lack of perseverance. HP truly lead the way and set the example for other companies to follow.

I started this blog almost seven years ago. It was my journey, my accountability to family and friends, and my way of letting out what God was doing for me. At the very beginning I never though I would write in it as much as I did. Honestly in the first two weeks, I didn't know if I would even have a marriage to write about. I thought it would be my journey back from the brink of a shattered life and completely broken marriage. But God had other plans. A plan that was perfect for me and my wife. Now we are on our way of celebrating twenty one years of marriage. It has been truly through the grace of God that he rebuilt our marriage from what was once many shattered pieces.

It is a known fact that sea otters hold hands while they sleep so they don't drift a part. I might be humanizing sea otters a bit when I say that no matter what happens during the day, they end the day by holding hands to stay be each others side. As my wife and I enter a new journey, one of which I will write about soon when God releases me to. I will and can say at the end of the day, when every one in our house is settled in for the night, I STILL finish my night next to my sweet wife. I never want to drift away from her. But more so than a night by night basis, holdings hands is a life long commitment. A commitment that takes patience, understanding, and unconditional love for each other. As I have said before my wife has loved me in my worst times, my best times, and loves me every day. I can think of no other example of the love of Christ but for what my wife and I have for each other.

Today I am still a messed up hubby. I am broken and in there lies my truth. It is in my brokenness that God has made his strength known in and through me. I honestly wouldn't want it any other way. Paul says in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

9 Each time he said, “No. But I am with you; that is all you need. My power shows up best in weak people.” Now I am glad to boast about how weak I am; I am glad to be a living demonstration of Christ’s power, instead of showing off my own power and abilities. 10 Since I know it is all for Christ’s good, I am quite happy about “the thorn,” and about insults and hardships, persecutions and difficulties; for when I am weak, then I am strong—the less I have, the more I depend on him.

Even seven years later I truly believe today that through the struggles, the hardships, the pain, disappointment, pain and hurt that God has made himself known to us. When I am down my God is strong. As my wife and I continue this journey we call marriage and family, we know that when there seems nothing left, God is our strength. I am not the perfect husband, father, or friend. In fact far from it. It is by God's grace and strength that we keep on keeping on. 

I used to end my blog when I first started writing with a prayer usually to let those know what to pray for or just a personal prayer. I think it is appropriate for me to do that now.

Father I ask today that more than ever, you make yourself known to us. Help us God to trust you in all things and that you be transparent in our lives and that when we are weak, you are strong. God your grace is sufficient for us. Amen..  

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

She's still my little girl....

One, two, free, pour, fibe, six, seben, eigh, nine, TEN. These are the exact pronunciations I would hear when asking my then three year daughter to count to ten for me. Then ten was always louder with more excitement then the first nine numbers. To be honest, I would do anything to have that little three year cute girl again.

Just like that she became a young lady. My daughter turned thirteen. I ask myself what happened? Where did the time go? More and more I notice that she is growing and my little girl that I could hold or feel her hand reaching up to grab mine is now almost the same height as me. My wife is constantly telling me of things that are changing in her life. While I am so proud, I am also so sad. My daughter is growing up quicker than I would like. I want to slow time way down and if I could reverse it a bit.

With all of that said I feel like there are a few things that she should know. So here is an open letter to my daughter.

My dear sweet daughter,

I remember when your mom called me to tell me that we were expecting. I was on a business trip. I was shocked, surprised, and was wondering if this was a dream. We had already adopted your brother, and now God had blessed us with you. Two kids in less than two years. Unbelievable!! Something your mom and I had prayed about for such a long time. Now God's blessings were more than abundant. We had a boy and a girl, and two years later your little brother would come along to complete our family.

When I met you for the first time, I fell in love with you. You had my heart. You were immediately daddy's little girl, you still are, and you always will be. I still have the hospital scrubs with your foot print on it right where my heart is. I made a promise to you that day that I would never let anything bad happen to you. You were this beautiful little thing that held your breath when you got mad. It was so cute!!

Now you are thirteen. You are a teenager. Things are changing with you. My little girl has practically turned into a young woman over night. You are becoming this beautiful young woman who is driven, has dreams and goals you want to accomplish. I promise as your father and with the help of your mom and God's guidance that we will do everything we can to help you accomplish everything you want.

When it comes to dating, marriage, etc.... To be honest the thought of a boy or man having a romantic interest in you makes me sick. I will have to rely on your mom to keep me calm when your first date happens. Some day when I walk you down the isle I can't promise that I will be able to let you go. Again I will have to rely on your mom to help me through this. I am pretty sure that I will be an emotional mess that day.

Most of all.. I am your Dad, your rock, your protector. That promise I made thirteen years ago is still good. But that promise comes with so much more than just the word promise. I promise to let life teach you lessons. I promise to continue to show you tough love when needed. I promise to always pick you up, brush you off and set you back on your feet. I promise to help you through life so that when the day comes for you to completely spread your wings that you are prepared for this world. That promise comes wrapped with unconditional love. There is nothing you can do to make me love you less. In fact quite the opposite, I will only love you more as time goes on.

I love you my daughter. I am so proud of the person you are becoming. You are truly beautiful inside and out. Now just remember, I am your dad. I am not perfect and as you have noticed, I have made mistakes and while I will always try to be the best dad ever to you, I am not always going to succeed. So for those times where I am a complete bonehead, I promise that some how and in some way I will make it up to you ten fold down the road.

I love you my daughter. I love just as much as the first day our eyes met. Thank you so much for loving me and giving me the absolute privilege to be your Dad.

I love you baby girl!!
Your Dad!

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

My response to the “all thou holy Christ like Target bloggers”

My response to the “all thou holy Christ like bloggers”.... Subject: Target bathroom policy Sub Subject... The recent policy change... I have seen a couple of blogs written by wives of pastors among others trying to slap us all on the back of the head and trying to make us feel bad for having an opinion that doesn’t fall into line with theirs. I will say this… I agree with them with their points that we are to love every one as Christ would. I also agree that some of the stances being taken are giving the church a black eye. And that is far as I go with agreeing with them. What bothers me is these blogs are getting more shares than the fathers who are standing up for their family. So to address those who want to slap all of us others on the wrist I give you my response. A response from a father who loves his family more than anything on this earth.

Let me preface this in response to a particular blogger who so elegantly stated their qualifications to have the opinion about this particular topic. So here are my elegant qualifications to have an opinion on this topic as well. I TOO am a Bible believing follower of Christ. For a mere ten days of my life I lived in a parsonage. My family heritage is that of ministry and sound biblical values. I will not cast a stone because I am not perfect nor do I have the right to judge anyone. I love everyone without condition. I know there’s a heaven and a hell. I know that Jesus died on the cross for our (yes ALL OF US) sins and rose again three days later. I believe that one day that God will return for those of us who believe in him to live with him for eternity. So with that said…

First point that stuck out to me is. “Most companies are liberal” Probably and most likely true. Anything we own these days is bought from a company that could be considered liberal. My response? I could care less if Target or any other company is a liberal company. Why are they liberal? Because they want to make money and avoid getting sued at all cost. The name of the game for them is making profit. Let’s just say these “liberal companies” identity as “issue neutral”. At the top level they could care less how you or anyone else identifies. They just want your money and they will throw out their net as far and as wide as they can to make a profit.

“Target offers a family restroom”… Last time I checked our local Target did not. But I haven’t been in there for a while, because I hate to shop and there is not much in there that I like. Oh yes I am sure you all are thinking “then why does he care so much about Target changing the policy?” My response? Read on…. My kids are at the age where they need privacy to go use a restroom and do not need me or my wife to make sure they go “pee pee” alright. Yes we can go before we go to Target, but what if it isn’t the first stop or the only stop? So while the family bathroom may solve the safety issue for some, it does not for everyone including the trans-gendered. Surprised? Yes I am concerned about their safety as well and where they will spend eternity. Let’s go one step further on that topic. Ever thought about what got us here in the first place? A big factor is the breakdown of the family and the sky rocketing divorce rate or the rate of families breaking a part. Truly it is alarming. No father figure? No mother figure? It plays a role in all of this, not to mention sin. Food for thought… I am proud to say that my wife and I are part of an organization that is doing its best to reverse these trends.

I love this one… “My kids have never been hurt by trans-gendered people” but then the author goes onto say their kids have been by people in the church. First I do not believe trans-gendered people are bad hard people out there wanting to hurt people. They are not the target of this entry or will they be ever. But back to the point… I give this one a BIG LOL!! Seriously!! The spirit of that particular blog is criticizing the church for being so critical of this issue. Last I checked the church is full of every day real people who are not perfect and have struggles just like everyone else. This blogger should pick up a book and read about Paul in the Bible. Heck Paul had his struggles too. My question to the author is if anyone in the church has physically hurt their children. I believe this is what people in general are fearful of the most when it comes to this policy change.

Let’s get down to it. This "bathroom policy" opens up a can of worms making it much easier for pedophiles to take advantage of their sick desires. For me and I bet for many others it’s not about the trans-gendered that is a threat to my families safety. It is not about tolerance, or loving every one like Christ does as it says in John 13. It is a safety issue because there are already document cases where these pedophiles have taken advantage of this policy and hurt others in public bathrooms. Common sense tells me that if my kid is going to use a public bathroom they are not going alone. They never have, and as long as they need me to protect them, they never will.

Last but certainly not least, the point about being known by the love of Christ. YES we are called to love as Christ would love and yes we are known by that love. But it doesn't mean we sacrifice our values and support un-holy things. We talk about tolerance. We talk about loving without condition. But yet when the church takes a stand and supports biblical values, the other side takes the tolerance stick and beats us to pulp. Please tell me why it is ok to walk away with our tails between our legs to not offend someone with the word of God? What is so offensive about the word of God? EVEN If you don't believe in God, the morals and values taught are good every day principles to live by. Check the news. Our rights like freedom of religion the very basis this country was founded on are being taken away as we speak in the name of tolerance. We can show tolerance by loving as Christ did and does without sacrificing how we are called live in God’s word.

So from a man who is married and has kids this is where I stand. As father and husband it is about keeping my wife and kid’s safe no matter what the situation is (storms, tornado’s hurricanes’ monsters, creepy looking people criminals, zombies, bugs, spiders, etc...) As a father and husband that is my job. God’s word calls me to do this. If I am not then I am not obeying my father in heaven. I will never put them in a situation where their safety is at risk. As long as I have breath my wife kids will always live in the Godly safety I provide them.

So here is what I know. I am a straight conservative father who loves his family with a very deep unconditional love. I am a man of God who longs daily to be filled with the Holy Spirit. Like Jesus I would be one of those people standing outside the bathroom waiting for not only the trans-gendered people, but those who are broken and hurting and in desperate need of the love of Jesus. But the very word of God that I will defend to the death, I will also use the word of God to love them into the Kingdom of heaven. Steven Curtis Chapman sand a song called More to this life… I leave you with the words.

"More To This Life"
Today I watched in silence as people passed me by,
And I strained to see if there was something hidden in their eyes;
But they all looked back at me as if to say
Life just goes on.

The old familiar story told in different ways,
Make the most of your own journey from the cradle to the grave;
Dream your dreams tomorrow because today
Life must go on.

But there's more to this life than living and dying,
More than just trying to make it through the day;
More to this life, more than these eyes alone can see,
And there's more than this life alone can be.

Tonight he lies in silence staring into space,
And looks for ways to make tomorrow better than today,
But in the morning light it looks the same;
Life just goes on.

He takes care of his family, he takes care of his work,
And every Sunday morning he takes his place at the church;
And somehow he still feels a need to search,
But life just goes on.


So where do we start to find every part
Of what makes this life complete;
If we turn our eyes to Jesus we'll find
Life's true beginning is there at the cross where He died.

He died to bring us...

Monday, July 20, 2015

You can't have one without the other... Part 1..

Saw a saying the other day. "A husband can love his wife best when he loves God first." Or I could turn it around and say "A wife can love her husband best when she loves God first." I could just say enough said.

The rate of failing marriages these days is breaking my heart. The divorce rate alone is at 50% and I am sure it is climbing. The rate of the wondering eye when a marriage is not fulfilling for the husband or wife is staggering. There is no communication and there is no effort to resolve the break or disconnect which equals in disastrous results. The rate of marriage where God is not the center is even more staggering. These are just a couple of examples of marriage break downs.

I started listing these break downs out based on my experience, and so I will be doing several blogs as I don't want this one to be long. I speak from experience as you all know. If you don't know my journey I encourage you to go back to the beginning of this blog and read my journey. You can click right HERE. God placed this on my heart this past Sunday.

Warning, this is the truth, nothing but the truth. If you cannot stand to hear the truth, then read on. If you can stand to hear the truth, read on. My point is, there are those out there who are simply not ready to take responsibility for the vows they made on their wedding day. Rather they choose to break them and take the easy out. The easy out isn't so easy.

The first one I would like to talk about is going without God.

My story started when I let the enemy put its nose where it didn't belong. One day on my way to work, I heard a sermon on the radio about giving everything to God. Well... I thought I had. I was angry and at this point nothing in my eyes was working out right. The prayers that I was praying were not being answered in MY timing. I simply wasn't seeing any improvement in my marriage. I wasn't seeing any improvement in the other area's of my life either. I failed to claim any responsibility in the conflict that was my marriage or my life. So I told God I was done with him and I would do things my way from here on out. Thus beginning my decent to the bottom.

So my saying would be this... "A husband or wife cannot live their marriage life if they don't have a grounded faith and love for Christ." Trials are going to come. Husbands and wives we are going to be tested. But if we are not grounded in Christ first, we will fail the test with miserable results. For a marriage to work, both husband and wife, must submit to God first and to each other second.

Here is the fix. If you find that you are struggling spiritually or struggling to understand what God is or isn't doing in your marriage. Seek God and pray, pray more and then pray some more. Dig in the word and dig some more. It is ALL right there. Listen for God to speak to you. Ask that God would speak to you in a way that only you can hear or understand. Seek Godly counsel from an experienced counselor. Seek guidance from your pastoral staff. IF you know of a couple who has been down this road seek them out too!! God wants to heal you marriage.

Part 2 next week. One of two of the break downs that all but destroyed me destroyed me.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

A number significant to you...

Today as I am reminded of those who have gone before me.. I am thankful for the heritage that was left for me. I think about when we get married, then some of us become parents... What if a person handed you a number at the moment of your first married kiss or when your first child is born? Your look at the number and turn around only to find that person no where in sight. Precisely that number had two digits. At first you don't know what that number means... On either one of these days, the "I do" or the first time you see your child you don't really think of the significance of that number handed to you. You fold up that number, tuck it a way in your coat pocket and live life.

Fast forward some time, years perhaps... Your kids are older. It is a cold day and you go outside to spend time with you wife and kids. You have put on that same coat that you have had for years. You reach in the pocket to find a folded up piece of paper. You open to see what it is, there is that number that was given to you by a stranger who seemed to just disappear. You briefly stop and think about it and you fold it back up put into the pocket keeping it as there is no where to throw it away.

Fast forward a few more years. Your kids are grown, your marriage has had the typical challenges that all do, maybe more. You have a doctors appointment, you put on the same coat which you have had for years. The doctors appointment reveals news of your health that shows your days may not be long. You go right into treatments only to find nothing is working. Your time here on earth is significant now. It means something, and while you still can, you want to check off the things on the bucket list while you still have quality of life.

You are getting ready for an event that wasn't on your bucket list, but your family has planned for you. You put on the coat, reach into the pocket to find the piece of paper you never got rid of. This time the number is significant from the day you received it. It means something... As you begin to do the math, you realize that there isn't much time left. As you begin to scan the years of your life, memories come flooding back. As those memories come, you begin to think how you lived your life, the mistakes made, the times that were great and times that were not so great. You look at the storms and the times of peace. You suddenly realize that God was the person who handed you that number years back. You also realize that God was in all things. You take a moment to thank him for all his grace and goodness to you.

I wonder how does this story end in your mind? We all know that God is not going to hand us a number. But what we do know is that God numbered our days. It says in Psalm 90:12 - "So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom." Have you used your days wisely? Have you used your days to serve God, serve your kids, and serve your spouse? In the storms when God was in it with you, did you depend on him to see you through? Did you act wisely in those times? Did you honor your husband or wife? Did you raise your kids according to what God asked of you?

Friends, I don't want to know what my number is. I want to live my life with all of it struggles, the good, the bad, and the ugly honoring God wisely all the way through. When the storms come, I will cling to my savior knowing he is always in that storm with me. I long to hear the words when I walk into heaven some day... Well done good and faithful servant.

I end the story...

You set the number aside as you realize your days were God's days. Your timing was not your timing, but God's timing. As you are surrounded by your family, you start to see a glimpse here and there of heaven. Maybe God is showing you the loved ones that have gone before you. You close your eyes one last time, one last early breath... As those on earth hand you off to heaven, you see your Lord and Savior and here the words well done my good and faithful servant. Your legacy that you left behind will surpass any number because it was a legacy of Christ.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

We still have moments...

My wife and I celebrated seventeen years of marriage in October. Some people ask how long we have been married and when I tell them seventeen years they almost seemed shocked. Truly their reaction makes me sad. The number of marriages that have lasted for years on end are low. That is happening for a few reasons. Mainly the people who have been married for so long, have passed to their heavenly home. We can also attribute the number of lasting marriages these days to the divorce rate of 50%. Years ago the attitude about being married and is you did anything to keep it going. If it broke you fixed it. Now the attitude is that if it is broke, it is easier to go get a new one. That might be true for things that we buy in life, but not so in marriage. If you can't fix the first one, then you can't fix the next one or the one after either. Now keep in mind, that I have always maintained, that some marriage's cannot be fixed because of extreme circumstances. But to me those types of marriages are the exception to the rule. God created marriage to be a forever covenant between a man and a woman. The world would like us think different and accept their ways of doing things. But we as followers of Christ know better and will defend the definition of marriage between a man and a woman.

I could go on forever about what marriage means to me. But I say all of that to say this. I am moved to write about a season we are going through. After seventeen years of marriage I find myself still having those ah ha moments with my wife. The strength that she shows in the moments of my irrational thinking have shown my wife in a new light. It has opened up yet another door of growing closer to her. Our marriage has taken another step forward in God showing his will for us. This moment of my wife showing Christ in her to me, was a moment made for worshiping. Really... moments of praise and worship are just some of the things God intended for marriage right?

Out of this recent moment has been a renewed burden for family. This blog has always been about my journey. From the very get go I have been very honest about every thing. There was some fall out from everything that had happened in the past. I lost friendships, I hurt friends and family, and lost time with those who I had hurt. Some of those I hurt the most were family members. I was angry, I was lost, and out of that I did and said things that I had no business doing or saying. My wife pointed out to me the other day that it was time to start moving forward and fixing some of these family dynamics that were broken or not 100%. My wife made these points to me. I have also noted my thoughts.

1. We never know how someone is feeling after time has passed if we don't seek them out. - This is so true. In both situations we were both surprised by what we heard and the responses we received. God had worked and is still working. 

2. Our kids are watching everything we do. What are they learning by watching us hold onto the past? - So true. If we constantly walk looking behind us, we will never successfully go down the path that Christ wants for us. If we let go of ourselves, loosen our white knuckes and keep our eyes planted on God, then the grace and joy is unlimited. Our kids can then see healing go hand and hand with forgiveness.

3. There are other seasons of storms that will come our way and this is one that we need to finish. - When God speaks we need to listen. God can help us navigate storms, but if we are the anchor holding the boat from getting out the storm. We will continue to miss out on the peace after the storm. 

4. God can't work if we don't allow him to do what he needs to do. - Seriously. When God moves us to do something, we need to do it. I know from experience on this. I didn't have much time with my mom before she went into a coma and the went to her heavenly home. I had all of a couple of hours to speak to my mom and settle things that needed to be buried. Had I stepped aside and let God have control, my time with my mom would have been so much longer. I was so stuck on the hurt, that I refused to let it go. I used the hurt as fuel to make the tiny flame into a roaring fire. Had I been where I needed to be spiritually, that flame would have been snuffed out like it needed to be. I will say it again. Let God step in and let him do his thing.

  5. This one was pointed at me. Accept the things of which you cannot change. Let go and let God. -  We need to spend more time letting God have our hurts and griefs. As humans we have this need to control things around us. Sometimes we try desperately to control the things in our life that cannot be controlled. We all have tried to do it only to fail miserably. We cannot move a mountain or calm a storm like Jesus did on the boat with the disciples. But seeking or speaking the name of Jesus can change anything. So why not let it go and let God? It should be so simple and it is. There have been many times in the past where things have haunted me or made me angry. I have talked about this before, but I will say it again. One of the biblical applications that I use during these times is I envision God with his hand coming down out of the sky right next to me. I lay down my "things" on his hand and I let God take it back to heaven. It says in the Bible that it will be done on earth as it is in heaven. God knows the desires of our hearts. We do not have because we do not ask. But God also knows what is best and how each answer is the perfect solution to the problem in his timing.

All five of the above points spoken through my wife from the Holy Spirit are very applicable to marriage, family, and any other storm that we may be facing. This is the ah ha moment that I am talking about. We still have those moments where my wife and I are the hands and feet of Jesus to each other.

Friday, September 12, 2014

David did what?

1 Samuel 17:32-37The Message (MSG)

32 “Master,” said David, “don’t give up hope. I’m ready to go and fight this Philistine.”

33 Saul answered David, “You can’t go and fight this Philistine. You’re too young and inexperienced—and he’s been at this fighting business since before you were born.”

34-37 David said, “I’ve been a shepherd, tending sheep for my father. Whenever a lion or bear came and took a lamb from the flock, I’d go after it, knock it down, and rescue the lamb. If it turned on me, I’d grab it by the throat, wring its neck, and kill it. Lion or bear, it made no difference—I killed it. And I’ll do the same to this Philistine pig who is taunting the troops of God-Alive. God, who delivered me from the teeth of the lion and the claws of the bear, will deliver me from this Philistine.”

Saul said, “Go. And God help you!”

This was my scripture this morning for my devotions. As I was reading this, I keyed in on a couple of things and my mind has been blown ever since. David killed a lion and a bear to protect the sheep his father had entrusted to him. It wasn't something David did once or twice it was something he probably had to do often. As I was reading this scripture, I thought to myself no way can a man kill a lion or bear with his bare hands. How is that even possible? On top of that David had decided to take on the bully named Goliath and take him down as well. I am floored at David's faith in God's ability to protect him from harm. 

My lack of faith in the big things sometimes stops my ability to trust God in all situations. As I am sure with many of you, it is easier to trust God with the small not so concerning situations that arise where the consequences are bearable. But what about the BIG things that come our way where the consequences are less than desirable? Sometimes we stand there facing Goliath, a bear, or a lion. Our doubts seem to take over about what God can really do to help. 

In our house, it has been an interesting couple of months. The enemy has tried once again to infiltrate our house and divide. Going through this once before, we were more aware of the signs and battled back on our knees and many people supporting us in prayer. When school starts, fall sports, and other commitments, there is an adjustment period. Our oldest son has experienced an unprecedented amount of anxiety on top of still grieving the loss of his grandmother one year later. The side affects of this has caused a stressful situation for us that has been exhausting. This situation we are facing and going through has been the David story for us. The enemy(lion or bear) if you will has tried it's best to snatch our son away from us in its jaw. We have jumped on and prayed away the lion and bears. It seemed when we would pray over him, the enemy would attack even stronger every time trying to one up us. Again we would go back to praying. While we are still in this process, we have put all of our faith and trust in God. That in itself is not easy. 

I posted this on Facebook just the other day. "Sometimes the stresses in life cause me to rush God to answer prayer according my timing and not his. But what is really happening, is those things that are stressing me, are blocking my ability to see what God is doing. I want so bad right now for God to flip the switch for healing. But I know that God is teaching and loving me through this season." It was this day that I realized I had to give all my worries to God. This whole thing we have been going through was now out of my control. My only defense was to pray, let go, and let God. This is a minute, hourly, and daily battle to let God have it, but the more we do it, the easier it becomes. The beauty of this is that God has started to open our eyes to what is happening and given us some patience and peace that we so desperately needed. People have surrounded us, counseled us, and been Christ to us.

After reading this scripture today, I realized that my wife and I aren't alone. That when we face the lions, bears, Goliaths, we need to do it with same faith and confidence that David had in God. We serve a God who is not going to leave us, we serve a God that has our best interest at heart. I know through this time, that we will see God move in a mighty way. This week God has started to answered prayer for us. We know the road is long, but we also know that we can persevere knowing that God will deliver us.  If God is for us, who can be against. I love this song. When I think about the Lord.